Not What I Expected

I've had a rough day today, it's been one of those days where I just really wanted to cry.  Sometimes i just get to thinking about things from my past that really upset me...and this question has haunted me all day!

Has your life turned out the way you imagined it would?

My absolute favorite verse in the Bible is Proverbs 16:9
"in their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps"

My life just has completely and utterly not turned out the way I expected.  As a child, I imagined being a nurse when i grew up.  I never imagined that I would have lived through a tornado and lose my childhood home, and I have lost friends and family members that I never would have imagined loosing...

It's been a rough road.  Don't get me wrong, I know I am extremely BLESSED and I am VERY thankful, but I never imagined I would walk through some of the troubles that I have been faced with.

I think my biggest problem in my life is friendships/family I lost that I feel i should not have- (but I'm trying to keep in mind God has a purpose for everything).

Blake and I have lost a LOT of friends since we found out we were pregnant.  It's like they all just dropped off the face of the Earth.  I am truly hurt over some I have lost, and I can't help but to wander why they didn't value our friendship more.  I just have to remember, God crossed our paths- even if I can't figure out why then ended, (but at least it helps me to cherish the friends that did stick around, and the new friendships we have started)

Anyway, the reason for this post is to say thank you to the people that have been an important part of my life, even if you are not currently in it...you know who you are, thanks for making my life worth living, and giving me special memories that make me who I am.  Thank you for the laughs, the helping hands, and the tears.  I appreciate the big and small things in life that I look back on and realize the importance of.

I am sure my life will continue to surprise me!!  I have no doubt that what I envision for my life may not be God's plan...so I guess I will just suck it up and go on!! :)  I trust God will give me a beautiful life and one day I will understand all the struggles!

"One of the simplest ways to stay happy is...letting go of the things that make you sad."  if it were only that simple!!!